Meme: Confessions of a (Re)Blogger


2013.12.04

I haven't done memes since my Livejournal days or even when I used to do them on Facebook. I never considered doing it here since I have the impression it's not really a blog thing in the strictest sense, but I suppose, why not? It's not like I'm writing articles for a corporation, I'm just writing a blog that is meant to be personal and about me, so... into the fire, I suppose!

I was tagged by Sebastian to do this.

When did you first start blogging and why?

As with other questions of my 'firsts', I usually start by stating it depends, since it really depends on whether I was conscious of the idea that I was actually 'blogging'. I suppose you could say that my first blog was a MSN Live Space, which has since disappeared. From there I moved on to Journals on GaiaOnline, Livejournal, Tumblr, and finally on to Wordpress and Jekyll, as a quick snapshot.

Why did I start? It was more than likely a place to vent. Now and forever, my parents have been a constant force of oppression (as far as I'm concerned) in my life and I would often vent about their recent acts somewhere they were unable to see, or know about. In a sense this is still what it is about in some ways.

Have you had any past online presence?

Prior to now, yes quite a bit, actually. I've never liked using my real name, although I've become more comfortable in putting my real name out there now, rather than simply using any of half a dozen fake names as if it were my real one.

The name I use now, is closer to the name I used in the beginning. Shortly after I started year 12 and rediscovered anime (since I'd largely become a manga reader) in that pivotal year, I joined an Inuyasha forum and started to use the name 'KirishimaAyama', and have largely used it ever since, but shortened it.

TL;DR: I've had a large and mangled internet history featuring many names and identities.

When did you become serious about your blog?

To be quite honest I feel that this happened at the end of last year and the beginning of this one. Despite the fact that if you count my blogging days from the start of my Live Spaces, I was never entirely serious about it even in 2004. The chatspeak and rambling that occurred within each post is now embarrassing and perhaps a blessing that it is now gone, even if a mixed one as it is a unique look back into my state of mind back then.

Even in my Livejournal days, apart from using my Livejournal as a place to dump daily fanfictions, the other posts were short, rambling and had little meaning. Rather like a lot of my posts of late, to be honest! I attempted some serious discussion with my 'Opinionated' Blogger blog (oops, forgot to mention that), but it quickly ended.

What was your first blog post?

I haven't the faintest idea. I suspect like most blog posts, they are a statement of you starting a blog, though I'm never big on the introducing myself part. 'lolz hey guiz I gots a blog nau!!one1!1'

On this blog, however, I tried hard not to make it so, considering the advice I got from Ruben. All the same, the first post I had planned for this blog was in fact not published until later!

Chicken buns

What have been your biggest challenges blogging?

Figuring out what I want to focus on, and having confidence in my writing as a whole. Most of my woes in finding content to post are a result of not knowing what I want to focus on here, which is a general mishmash of life (which honestly I'm not that proud of at all), art, photos, anime and tech.

My greatest ambition is to write a blog like Ruben's, but not having his knowledge of technology nor experience, and even not having his knowledge of overseas countries and cultures and politics, anime, or even just... everything in general, plus being unable to write with the inclusion of little jokes and references like he does... has been somewhat discouraging, I'll admit.

What is the most rewarding thing about blogging?

The most rewarding thing for me is having someone like something that I've written. That's likely why I was so dedicated before in writing Fanfiction on my Livejournal, because it seemed that others enjoyed what I do. Therefore without any feedback at all on my website, this is somewhat another challenge for me to find the motivation in continuing.

As much as this site is written for myself to remember my life, and allow me to sort through my own thoughts, at the same time some things can't be written about, and I can do the same thing in the shower.

What is the most discouraging thing about blogging?

Seb's right in that the most common answer is not getting much response, since I'm the type of person who would rather write for others than myself. Lacking this response from the 'others' category means I've lost purpose.

Like Seb also, I get discouraged by my own dislike of my blog posts. But rather than being disgusted by the writing of it, I'm disgusted with the content I've selected also. So pretty much everything.

What is your lasting inspiration or motivation?

I look onto Ruben as a goal.

What is your blogging dirty little secret?

If I'm too tired to finish or write a post for a specific date, I backdate it for the date I intended to post it, rather than when it was actually posted.

What is your current goal as a blogger?

To find something specific to focus on, rather than being a mishmash of everything under the sun. I want to specialise. I want to write about something techy.

Also to be more positive, but that's more of a life goal.

Have you learned or become passionate about anything through blogging that caught you by surprise?

I'm sure it'll come to me. I guess I learnt in my Livejournal/Formspring days that I have another side to my personality that doesn't appear often. But I haven't seen that side in a long time, since it exhausted itself.

I have learnt about Jekyll in the process of this blog, but more so because Ruben decided to move to it and I decided to follow suit than any other reason. I also rediscovered fanfiction and writing, but I also haven't written any for a long time. It would be nice to get back into it.