Lost and Found

It's not as though I'm particularly popular because the truth is I'm not, but I'd always been terrified of what my parents would think if I had 'brought home' a 'gwailo' boyfriend.

Mid last year, I decided that I didn't care anymore, especially since I'd finally found someone I really knew I liked a lot. Little did I expect nothing more than prejudice and a queer form of denial where they could only accept him as a 'friend' and expect everyone else to see this in the same way.

I wonder now why I thought they would receive me well when I always knew it would just be a 'shit going down' thing and they wouldn't accept it. I suppose I thought they actually wanted me to be happy, and that's what they say they want, but they can't see that all they're doing is making me extremely sad, do they?